Sick of being SICK!!

Ug-g-g-g-!!!

I am sick of being sick! If I say it enough will it be over???

I am currently starting on day 10 following sinus surgery and I am sitting here in my robe and jammies, wiping my nose AGAIN, wondering if it will ever be over! Never in my life have I had to give up everything so that I could get better! No working, No school, No studying, No meetings, No driving, don't feel like much of anything else...Nothing!!

There, I feel better all ready :)...This is just so-o-o-o crappy!

I must admit, although I have basically had an ongoing headache since I can't remember when, I am beginning to feel the progress. I have on a few occasions rinsed my nose and drained to the point that I could actually feel airspace inside my nose! AMAZING! Thank you God!

This may sound sarcastic but really, thank you God!

I don't know how I am getting thorough this except my mom, (and others helping), prayer, and God! I know it takes time to recuperate. This is just something I am not good at giving to myself. At times I feel like, "come on Kathy, just take a shower, get dressed, and go to it!" then I take 2 steps and sit or lay back down :).

I guess I am not going to be able to fight back on this one. OK Lord, you have my attention, my FULL attention...I'll go back to bed.

Didn't I just do this??

It has been so long. Sometimes I swear, just as I get into the swing of things everything changes. I know I just set up a blog not too long ago and had posted to it since Christmas but somehow I have misplaced my sign in info and between family, school, and work, I have let enough time slide by that I have forgotten everything! Not that I used it that often or anything but I am gonna try again :) We will see how I do.

I love the concept and availability now if I can just get it into the routine. Isn't that the way it is with everything?? I mean, we know we should do something, make a change, improve upon,... we know it's "good" for us or helpful or whatever... and we even look into it and possibly pursue it. We sometimes even plan and start to use these ideas or tools but somehow old ways and habits get in the way and we return to our pattern of hum-drum daily routine.

Here is to another attempt and to doing something on purpose!

Wish me luck :)